i have only one thing to say .
 
i want friends i can keep and i know you all are keepable . Sorry for being so incorrigible , i couldn't help it . i spent exactly 3h 27mins thinking about it last night . yes , i counted it .

p/s do not EVER deceive me again . there won't be a next time . right ?

I am (eupehemistically) naive .
          ( not so nicely)        gullible.
          (the truth)                A STUPID CLOWN .
today was a funny day till 2 things happened .
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why did you reject my calls and hang up on me ? this shows you have a guilty conscience . you can run but you can hide . i can stand everything except the fact that you told evrybody else and told them not to tell me !

i don't mind you dating him . i have NO MORE feelings for him k . you think i'm that fragile ? that the truth will cut me deeply ? you think i was pretending when i said i didn't like him anymore ? that it was a facade ?

well , you're wrong . it's the truth . i am truthful to you yet you lied to me . is there something wrong in this friendship ? you know i hate to be deceived yet you deliberately withheld the truth . and how long has this been going on ?

i can't believe how stupid i was . why did i trust you ? why didn't you trust me when i said i didn't like him anymore ? you prob thought the truth will hurt me right ? it doesn't .

i'm hurt betrayed , enraged because you didn't trust me to be mature enough  to know the truth .

hello , i'm 15. only 1 year younger than you . than the both of you . i'm old enough . i'm not a clown for you to make fun of . you're laughing your ass off right ? you think it funny that you've been deceiving me for such a long time . you all had a mighty good laugh about it .

and don't give me crap like "we were afraid you couldn't take the harsh truth so we didn't tell you" . All of you were amongst my bestest and closest friends yet you couldn't tell me the truth . and now , how am i supposed to believe you ? can i even believe anything you told me ?

You were my friends . sorry . (i can't think straight now . i dont wish to talk to you guys either . give me time . this statement might and might not be for real .this shall be the means of communication . pls don't call or msg me . no LIES)

Jul 23
cant log in . trg sucked . 2 friends quit . why ? damned coach against me or smth . none of my galpals came today . hmmph . never tell me . they only do 200m , i did 300m . i hvn't finish then they all went over for sprints , leave me alone to finish my lap . Unfair . fcuk . i shall quit too and take up wakeboarding .

Jul 24
2 tuitions today . maths and chinese . oh shucks . there is a void inside me , help . i'm a lil moody today . nv go out . MUCH . Args . i'm a person of few words .

Jul 25
Overwhelmed by jealousy , i can't help it . can't help comparing everything . now everything remotely cck-ish , i despise . SHUT UP . quit it . i don't want to be jealous . i'm regretting it . everything . oh , and i'm not referring to anyone in particular , repeat , not referring to anyone in particular . why the hell you people talk so much ? sickening can . just shut up la . i can't stand it .
sry , this is not intentional . i just not happy .

met an old acquaintance , got along pretty well . traded nos . he is super mr nice guy . one happy incident erases out one unpleasant incident .

 

do you see those green areas ? why won't it go away ?

.: Alter Composition of Your Blood :.
 
it looks so ugly . YUCK !

.: Inflicted with Necrophilia :.

 

hAHA . not bad . blogging now has more features . hEh . nice .

u . sorry . just trying stuff out . this is nice .

 

trg today was ok . did some stupid reverse back thing . pretty hard at first but after that not so bad . today was boring . *trg is goddamned boring*

 

maybe i should change too . terry say he maybe changing . hAh . then follow him . then we all leave , leave unc vic there to cry . hAH .

 

ok . that's about all . i'm lazy .

 

 

 
 

socks confiscated . Fcuk the gay , he frequents changi village . tt's for sure . yuck ! gaydom is his favourite word.

my feet hurt .
my shoulders ache .
school sucks .
teachers are doomed .

they have to walk the earthy hell eternally .
they're wasting my oxygen !
oxygen thieves !

this is not good .

i'm GIFTED . The Gifted person is off to have a power nap so she can save the world later .

ah fcuk . nt exactly happy right now . i shall do away with the blasphemy though .
seeing people happy makes me mad super mad .

no , i'm psychotic remember ? ok , i'm nonsensical now . this doesn't make sense to you right ? good , cos it doesn't make sense to me either . hA

: the mad dogs are on the prowl :

i hate the current sitting pos . hate it . Hate it . HAte it . HATe it . HATE it .
Bitches in heat . args . Fcuk .
the fengshui there is bad . Super bad . hATe it .

the harbringers of doom shall die !
crazy teachers . my shirt was a Little out and my socks a little low then this super nice NOT teacher - P - had to rant and rave at us ? get a life man . at this rate , her face will be the base of gazillions of gazillions of tic-tac-toes . Get it , it's wrinkles . she's a real sneak eh ? sure enjoys coming out of corners to lecture people . yawn . it's boring . your brains gone or smth ? prob hiding some sexually expletive stuff inside that's why there's no space for brains right ? yea , i'm right . you hv a big wrinkly butt , i suggest you iron them STAT !

sickening ! school sucks TOTALLy . no mercy is on . mental midgets with stunted cerebral growth enjoy picking on us to enjoy the teeny weeny bit of power they have . when i rule the world , i'll have them whipped and sent to factories to create human carcasses for the fun of it . no , maybe not , i'll stuff them into this huge unventilated room , they can breathe and rebreathe the same air till they suffocate . Cruel but NICe . they're a bunch of useless things put on earth for me to torment . they only waste my air . It's precious . Wasteful !

Fcuk ! darned person keeps calling my phone , he/she insists that i sent him/her a msg . i call that CRAZY . Fcuktarded imbecile with shit for brains .

eh . heh . can't find those pics . prob deleted them or smth . but i could have sworn they were somewhere in the com . this is bad . pray for me , pray i'll find them . i have to produce them tomorrow can ?

>>> the inability to take cabs cripples me <<<

aww . shucks .

recap
skipped trg . stiff muscles . Args .
slept till 10 ?
had brunch - spaghetti with gooey cheese . nice .
left for tuition .
rched home
out again for a long walk
home nt long ago .

i walked ! hAHA , not all the way though .
michel dropped me few houses away from my house .
anyway , parents not back . god knows what they doing .
so i'm safe . i didn't take cab wot , not i pay . hEH .

oya , my sis is back . she came back on sat morn . ytd , too agitated to mention it . hEH .

and tt's abt it . i decided that i shan't go out . half the time , i'm too tired to walk after the whole day out and yet i have to walk home ?! so play safe , no going out . unless i'm super hyper or smth or the cabbing ban is lifted then i'll go . hEH.

i have to dig for pics . it's for a super maluating reason . i shan't say it . it's embarassing ! Argsh . *blush attack*

.: You're a jellyfish-sucking mental midget :.

i'm 'banned' from cabbing .
ya , go ahead , scream Fcuk in that bitch's face .
hello , it's not as if it's a crime for me to take a cab ? shall i ban you from driving the metal clunk you call a car ? huh ? is it? is it a crime ? i guess you're afflicted with the most severe form of mental retardation . even if you're reading this , you aren't able to grasp the barest of what it is telling you . the ants are scurrying out of you cerebral department . hurry , stop them . you brain-dead freak .

Grotesque GargoyleS . i have no parents . they've been disowned . as a matter of fact , i don't have parents . this 2 kidnapped me to claim as thier own . they wanted a superbly intelligent daughter to show off to the rest of the world . i shall make them regret their thievery . i will shut down their life-support system in 5 seconds' time . UNLESS , they apologize .
5..
4..
3..
2..
1.. They're DEAD ! i've done a good deed . they should crown me King . i've rid the earth of 2 humans who do nothing but inhale oxygen and give out carbon dioxide . they're contributing to the greenhouse gases . they're harming this earth . they're a social menace . thank me , everyone .

I have found little that is good about human beings. In my experience most of them, on the whole, are items fit for the incinerator .

damn printer no ink . can't be bothered . just finished eng compo only . how pathtic . i hate this.

Argh !



this is so nice .

[If At First You Don't Succeed , Failure May Be Your Style]

checked results . and i am not pleased , i am not pleased . i shld hv counted . let the stupid sj girl get 8th position . darn ! i hate hypocrites . esp those that keep going i very long nv train , sure can't win then still can get into top 4 ! blah blah

i can't do english , don't hv the stupid paper . it's a freaky compo . yawn , boring . i decided to change skins like once a month ? nah , maybe when i'm sick of it ? oh gosh , i can't decide . shld the sch reimburse me for cab fare ? i think they shld . but they prob won't . Misers !

heh .

i'm StILL hungry . and i'm tired . and i'm still chlorinated . i'm off . i'm cross .

i just remembered something . i haven't bathe ! hAHA . i'm chlorinated

i don't know if she's back yet . hell . hunger pangs gone cos i'm eating CHOCS . heh

i'm hungry . but there's no one to cook for me . maid nt back yet

.: Whirlpool of Confusion-Depression :.

this is sad . no one for company till sch lets out . i raging mad ! thr's smth wrong with the prog order . how come 1500 a boys yest and 1500 b boys today ? Weirdos huh ? xw went back to sch . i cabbed home . was home like 30 or so mins ago ? i'm napping after this . i think it is unfair that they ring the bell to remind the 1500 swimmers that they are finishing and then for 400 they don't ring . hello , not all swimmers are good mathematicians k ? yes , i lost count . so i wasn't sure if there was another 100 or finished , so i let the sjc gal go first . she stopped . so did i . don't be smug , little girl , i coulda hv beaten u k ? there was so little people in the morn , thr will def be more later . not that i will be in the mood or have the time to go . i hate rg people , why so fast ? she kept saying very long never train , blah blah blah , then still can have a timing of 4:47:smth ! the next iming was 5 min+ . i'm feeling cheated .

Good luck to all of ya who still have events and thanks to those who wished me luck . must win .

perfect by nature
icons of self indulgence
just what we all need
more lies about a world
that never was and never will be
have you no shame don't you see me
you knw you've got everbody fooled
look here he comes now
bow down and stare with wonder
oh how we love you
no flaws when you're pretending
nut now i know he
never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed mw
and somehow you've got everybody fooled
without the mask where will you hide
can't find yourself lost in your lie
i know the truth now
and i know who you are
and i don't love you anymore

{Tears of yesteryear will never be forgiven nor forgotten }

July 2
aww . shucks . blogger conked up . 2 days alrdy . wth . ok .
so i shall blog on notepad then . watched the czech and greece match . omg .
greece so lucky !! hAHA . stupid nik . so now i shall only owe you 220 bucks . heh .
oh and for last match , no heavy stakes , i'm a -220 so must bet wisely .
betting $10 per goal . i bet greece win . i bet on them , they lucky so they win. hAHA
i am their lucky star . a v.big thank you to nik for asking me to bet on greece .
but it was pure luck . hope lady luck sides them ! heh . missed trg for this whole wk .
sunday must go alrdy . might do self-trg tml . if i can find someone .. eh .


July 3
tuition at 10 . and again at 3 . after that , dug snails and earthworms . we -me and bros- cooked them ! heh . with rice and tea . fun . real fun . hAHA , blogger conked out again . i loved the sizzling sounds the food produced .

.:Confusion and Depression at my doorstep:.
Today
went to kap macs for tea ? it was arnd 2 . won 200 yest . bet 50 with nik that greece will win . and greece won 1-0 . omg . hEHE . borrowed 20 from bro to bet and paid him back the same day ! home early (5+ or 4+) today . i am bleeding . i am so gonna foul up on sch ntls . meetg xw at gate . shucks . nv train for 2 wks or so ? this is bad . Sorry , my bad . hated coach so skipped many trgs . hEH . i deserve it huh ? i'm scarred . it hurts badly . i've new wounds all over . i'm sorry . really sorry . My bad . i'm at fault . yes , i am . i knw it now . *swears* a thousand gazillion sorries and it still doesn't change the pain huh ? believe me , i knw . it hurts but time will wash it away .

[ Laughter Hides My Sorrows ]
[ Charged Guilty . I while my time away behind bars ]