going to do the stupid proposal now . don't know why must do . it's not as if in future all of us will be writing one wot . unless we all become secretaries or clerks . which is truly quite impossible . everyone around seems to be in a busy busy hectic mode . and i'm slacking like a goddamned idiot . so pathetic know ? my exams on the 10 oct . i see everybody in school studying studying then i get so damn fed up . want to be so competitive than still want to act as if never study like that .

people , let me tell you . studying is not a crime . go ahead and study all you want . it's for your future anyway . don't be ashamed to study . at least you're not a slacker like me . okay ? very good . now go back and study . faster !

eew . my keyboard feels so sticky . yucks . yucks . hate it . hAHA . i'm very bored . still need to do some crap proposal . don't do will get punished . so crap can .

i want to study . can god send someone to motivate me ? see everybody studying , i feel so damned left out . i even brought my books home to study but they're always dumped in one corner until sunday need to return to school than i take and put inside my bag . so dumb of me . it's hopeless . hOPELESS . u hear ? i can never be a scholar in this life . sad . sad . i want to study . someone faster come and motivate me . i'm so left out if i'm the only one not studying . so pitiable . deplorable . servile . squalid .

well . enough said . i got no motivation . might as well go sleep after doing the proposal instead of wasting my time trying to find some motivation .

motivation , where are you ? come here . i'll give you chocolates . don't run away . come help me okay ? i promise to treat you very very very well . no need to be afraid of me . i'm a very nice person. come here . okay ? oi ! you hear me . stupid thing . go die la . you better help me or i'll dismember you ah .