.: act in conformity of your principles :.

my grandma at my house . she had a tiff with my uncle and came here to stay . many restrictions from now on . but she's asleep now . so can't be bothered but she gave me 10 bucks when she saw me . hAHA . i know i shouldn't be saying this but it's the only good thing about her . yes . i know . i'm unfillial . oh . and i passed my a-maths test . got 21/35 . some applause please . hAHA . i can't read msgs till tmr's 8pm . super sorry . and i hope you all did well . my bro didn't fail . he got 28 or so marks . el b3 the rest c6 . pathetic right ? hA . he had it coming . think he going poly . have to buy leeanne and steph's presents tml . maybe i'll go buy it alone . can't risk contacting u all . sorry .

potluck today . lotsa food . training was super intense . muscles aching . reached club at about 7pm-ish . everyone was alrdy in the pool . we were the last to arrive . ate talk laugh . parents talk about their kids the food and o lvls and all the whatnot crap they always talk about .

Lately i'm such a goody two shoes
that it disgusts me
it's a show .
a facade .
of guai-ness
wish i didn't have to do well/study hard
this is depressing
but i don't want to be a failure in life
this is my chance to shine
to prove my mark
to be on the top of the world
i will not fail


i hate my homeland . concentrates too much on study study study . and no play play play . haven't they heard that all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy ?
they're restricting our creative juices because if allowed to flow , the juices will swarm over them . drowning them . smothering them . killing them . they want to retain control over us and mold us into an exact model of themselves . hiding our absolutely vivacious unique personalities . making boring models of themselves ubiquitous, found in every nook and cranny of this island .

this the reason why i'd rather study abroad . i feel my talents going to waste , my creativity stifled .