I am (eupehemistically) naive .
          ( not so nicely)        gullible.
          (the truth)                A STUPID CLOWN .
today was a funny day till 2 things happened .
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why did you reject my calls and hang up on me ? this shows you have a guilty conscience . you can run but you can hide . i can stand everything except the fact that you told evrybody else and told them not to tell me !

i don't mind you dating him . i have NO MORE feelings for him k . you think i'm that fragile ? that the truth will cut me deeply ? you think i was pretending when i said i didn't like him anymore ? that it was a facade ?

well , you're wrong . it's the truth . i am truthful to you yet you lied to me . is there something wrong in this friendship ? you know i hate to be deceived yet you deliberately withheld the truth . and how long has this been going on ?

i can't believe how stupid i was . why did i trust you ? why didn't you trust me when i said i didn't like him anymore ? you prob thought the truth will hurt me right ? it doesn't .

i'm hurt betrayed , enraged because you didn't trust me to be mature enough  to know the truth .

hello , i'm 15. only 1 year younger than you . than the both of you . i'm old enough . i'm not a clown for you to make fun of . you're laughing your ass off right ? you think it funny that you've been deceiving me for such a long time . you all had a mighty good laugh about it .

and don't give me crap like "we were afraid you couldn't take the harsh truth so we didn't tell you" . All of you were amongst my bestest and closest friends yet you couldn't tell me the truth . and now , how am i supposed to believe you ? can i even believe anything you told me ?

You were my friends . sorry . (i can't think straight now . i dont wish to talk to you guys either . give me time . this statement might and might not be for real .this shall be the means of communication . pls don't call or msg me . no LIES)

Jul 23
cant log in . trg sucked . 2 friends quit . why ? damned coach against me or smth . none of my galpals came today . hmmph . never tell me . they only do 200m , i did 300m . i hvn't finish then they all went over for sprints , leave me alone to finish my lap . Unfair . fcuk . i shall quit too and take up wakeboarding .

Jul 24
2 tuitions today . maths and chinese . oh shucks . there is a void inside me , help . i'm a lil moody today . nv go out . MUCH . Args . i'm a person of few words .

Jul 25
Overwhelmed by jealousy , i can't help it . can't help comparing everything . now everything remotely cck-ish , i despise . SHUT UP . quit it . i don't want to be jealous . i'm regretting it . everything . oh , and i'm not referring to anyone in particular , repeat , not referring to anyone in particular . why the hell you people talk so much ? sickening can . just shut up la . i can't stand it .
sry , this is not intentional . i just not happy .

met an old acquaintance , got along pretty well . traded nos . he is super mr nice guy . one happy incident erases out one unpleasant incident .