Jan 12

the bimbotic 'purple' didn't come today . hurray . hAHA . he's such a faggot , can't stand him . he went for some reservice thingy . imagine standing him in the sweltering heat , super tight tee and short shorts . hAHA . and he'll be like fanning himself and stuff . gRoSS ! hAHA . so i can wear my ankle socks , wax my hair as much as i want . i'm enjoying it . freedom . i'm enjoying it .

life is pretty dull now . aft the 'havockish' (havocish?) hols i had , sch life pales a lot in comparison . o ya . yet to tell you my NY resolutions . 11-days late .

1 . Be more guai . if not , act guai also can .
2 . don't piss the teachers off unless they do the same to me .
3 . motivate myself .
4 . study .
5 . play . (but not as much as before)
6 . be a righteous , law-abiding , god-fearing girl .
7 . be young at heart . (i'm growing old!)

swimming training is so boring . uGh . he keeps saying that he's teaching us the correct stroke and blah . somehow , i think that i'm not cut out for swimming . uncommitted ? nope . nt really anyway . no matter how much i train whenever i see them going overseas either for training or competitions , i feel so damned useless . blame me for being such a slacker . i want motivation , to push myself to become a top athlete . i have a dream . and that what it is , just a dream . saddening .